Well, it's August 8th. Summers almost over and I cant say Im not glad. I've had my share of good times sure. But a hell of a lot more bad. Friends fighting, lying, stealing. Emotions fucked up and let loose to go wild and hurt those I love. Sleeping is the only thing I can do now. I want to be able to smile. To be happy, to feel free again. But it's not going to happen soon. But I want it to, not for my own sake, I cant deal with this, But for the good of my friends. I know its no excuse to hurt them. No excuse to yell, and fight and hit and hurt. But I just can't control it anymore.

Life will get better, if not sooner, later. Maybe a day, a week, a month, a year. Things are OK other then my stupid issues. That are my fault. Things will get better. Though I'm the most pessimistic optimist you'll ever meet. if that makes any sense to anyone but me....Not that anyone reads this damn thing.

I wish everyone the best of luck, Everyone the best in life. I'm sorry if I hurt anyone. I'm slowly going to get better. I have to do this myself. No more shoulders to cry on. I've pushed them all away. I'll have a future though its undecided. Hopefully my Goddess helps me through this.

Sorry for ranting though no one will probably read an "emo" kids journal. My poetry will be on hold, and all my drawings. Sorry. I'll make it through.

Love <3,
Alyssa